"wet asphalt reflecting shining cars. It’s May, how come it’s raining? I emptied my room and threw everything you gave me away. (you did the same with me) rain all over my lashes and all over everything. I am scared of lightnings so I walk fast. I wanna be as unpredictable as a thunderstorm in May. the rain is ruining all the flowers. (can I be gone with this thunderstorm?) a kiss to all the stray cats and dogs. A kiss to all the animals without a home"
Today is one of those days where I think too much, but not about anything special. I am not happy, I am not sad. I am just here, doing what I am supposed to do (wake up, work, walk the dog, eat, go to bed) without really knowing where I am going in life. But I guess everything is fine. Everybody has those days. Right?
I do not know what to feel or do. one day I feel everything so deeply. one day I do not feel a single thing. numb. today I need you. or do I? do you need me? who needs me, anyway? yesterday I thought you needed me. today? I am not so sure. do you? I like to think. about you. about everything. but today I want the thoughts to stop. now. you confuse me. everything confuses me. I am not happy. I am not sad. I. am. confused. ya feel me?